From the recording Dimming Aquila: Volume 1 (Greatest ALTAiR Contributions)
This was my first foray into openly discussing my lack of religious beliefs. It was early 2004 and (going back to Aureolous) I was a bit distraught after my muse began dating my band-mate/room-mate in what became a suddenly awkward living situation. Feeling that my lack of faith in the Christian god may have had something to do with it, this song became the fruit of that pain.
Lyrics
Heretic you speak lies
I'm at a boiling point
Don't test me
Motives driven by heresy
My fingers shake
You aggravate
All the parts of me that hate
Let god forgive, I won't forget
You wagered on a losing bet
What do you think you'll find when you die?
A guilded city cast upon the sky?
I'll tell you what you'll see when you go
A dreaded image you think you don't know
You live your life in fear of that day
Don't even realize what's coming your way
It's time to listen, take my advice
Don't want to pay the ultimate price
Embrace my heresy, enjoy your life
Perhaps tomorrow sees the blade of a knife
A misinterpretation of a lie
Is nothing more than gospel truth
Misrepresented, coming from above
Hallowed be thine heresy
A vision lies beyond the grave
Hallucination that Jesus saves
I don't believe in any decree
That won't allow you to be with me
A lucid dream you might forget
Religion built and rules are set
Strict and moral ways to live
But is there room for love to give?
I wanna hold you close to me
Feel your skin soft as can be
What is our chance to make it as one?
'Cause if it's there, let's take it and run
Who am I kidding? Your mind is shut
I know that I can never make the cut
I'm like the moon chasing the sun
You worship god, I worship no one
Begin to fall rapid descent
There's no one out there to hear me repent
Given the chance to do it again
I'd have indulged in plenty more sin
I cannot live in agony
You do not want a part of me
It's growing harder to breathe in and out
Trapped in a void, no use for a shout
Begin to see I ain't so wrong
Seems deep down you've known all along
My heresy permits me to believe
In all I see and physically perceive
Embrace the lie, so-called Good News
I know you haven't got a thing to lose
The lights go out, the game is done
And in your mind, the game is won
Everything I once believed
Is now replaced with heresy
Everyone I used to love
Is living life so dangerously
Hallowed be thine heresy
Blessed be thine heresy
Blasphemous, your heresy
Living lie, your heresy