From the recording re-Render me: Long Story Edition
Drawing off my own personal experiences with suicide, the closing track was the last one recorded, and is probably my most stirring emotional vocal performance ever. I know that's not saying much, but it gives me goosebumps, at least
Lyrics
I'm giving in to emptiness
Endless dreams, endless sleep
Each night I grasp
For what's not there
Never there, never was
But will these dreams
Bring meaning to this?
Empty breath, empty death
Nothing to lose anymore
No one to care that I'm a bore
Open the void, open me wide
I'm giving in to a meaningless life
Nothing left now, nothing to share
Each day I wake in a program loop
Never aware, never alive
But was this story lived and told in vain?
Empty words, empty sky
Nothing to give into
Who could forgive
A wretched, forsaken
And flung from grace
Loser by design?
I've still got my choice
And with this morning light
I'm giving up the fight
I'm giving up the fight