From the recording re-Render me: Long Story Edition
Left off the Short Story Edition of the vinyl, this track was initially meant to be a closer to the A-side of the album, with One Last Kiss bombastically opening the B-side, but as the song lengths and story flow evolved, and the album went from being an ALTAiR album to a solo project, things switched up a bit
Lyrics
Never been afraid of the dark
Mama never held my hand
Always been the one in control
Always wanted to be in a band
But I couldn't catch your eye
Never felt I was good enough
Never thought it would be a mistake
To become all I could be
What I can be isn't that much
If I am deprived of your touch
Everything I became is wrong
Maybe I came on too strong?
What I can be isn't quite man
Maybe that's why you turned and ran?
I did this all for you, my dear
Why do you look away in fear?
Made a choice as I've always done
I didn't care what anyone thought
Didn't think that you would mind
To fall in love with a superman
Now everything I've changed for
Has changed right before my eyes
What's happened to this love?
Was it ever really there at all?
What I can be isn't your dream
And it isn't quite as it seems
It's a nightmare I'm trapped in
Literally immortal sin
What I can be is insane
All alone I bear this pain
Never quite sure what I am anymore
I could never love you
I'm sorry, I've become.. someone else.. machine
Oh, you could never love me
I could never love you
What I can be is not man
All I am is machine
What I can be is machine
You could never love me
And I could never you
When all that I am inside is nothing but cold machine